Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Silent All These Years - Vlog!

Is there a song that holds special meaning to you?  I've loved Tori Amos since Spring Break my senior year of high school (thank you, Laura). Little Earthquakes touched my core and for years I was a huge fan; collecting every album, hunting down rare imports, going to every concert when she came to town - I even have an autographed concert ticket!

After I grew up a little, got married and had kids, I didn't need her music anymore. My angst had resolved! I listened to her now and again because she's fun to sing to and her music (at least her first 4 or 5 albums) holds a special place in my heart, but the words held little meaning for me.

Recently, after listening to Little Earthquakes for the first time in years, I reconnected with one particular song: Silent All These Years.

Motherhood is one of the greatest gifts of my life. It changes you forever, sometimes leaving bits of you behind. That woman you are, the essence of you, falls silent for awhile as your life, your world is taken over by all things baby. The purest expression of womanhood - childbirth - can actually strip you of your feminine power.

That's what I'm talking about today on the vlog! I'd love to hear your thoughts.

So, what song holds special meaning in your heart?

I'm linking up with Mama Kat's Practically World Famous Vlogging Prompts!
Thanks for the inspiration, Mama Kat!


  1. Juke Box Hero by Foreigner!!!!

    I totally should have gotten further as a rockstar. My claim to fame is ALMOST opening up for Warrant at a local venue. Now I just try to stay sane.

    Love ya Sis! Brian

    1. Almost?! Cool claim to fame! I love that song too!!!

  2. That is a beautiful song and you have a beautiful voice. I can so relate to the self discovery of finding yourself after being knee deep in those baby years. All my kids are in school too and I am learning who I am again.

  3. What a great song! Those baby years are wonderful, but I'm enjoying having my kids in school, too.

  4. You have a beautiful voice. I have not heard that song in a long time, but yes I definitely can relate. I feel like in the last 3 years I finally started to take time for me and not just be the Mom or the Wife but Me.

  5. Thank you, ladies! School is so liberating for the S/WAHM!!! And Jenny - yes, mom or wife! Thank you for your input!

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    1. I don't know if you'll remember me from school--my maiden name was Van Buren, the *cazy* girl in the wheelchair? ;) We had a few classes together throughout our time at LHS. I have recently (only today!--haha!) stumbled upon your blog through Tina Bommarito's Facebook page and I found this. :) I'm glad I stumbled upon you. This is a great creative outlet and what you say about music, particularly Tori Amos, resonates deeply within my own psyche.

      I have long held on to a particular band (OMD) because their music has always resonated throughout my psyche and I love, love, love what you say about reclaiming yourself and finding yourself again after giving all you are to others. That really hit close to home for me. I have a husband who has bipolar disorder and sometimes life can get really difficult, even though his case is extremely mild, compared to others--I'll take that! Haha! But somewhere down the line, I became his wife and though I have always felt like 'me', I haven't exactly been true to myself and my psyche at times and I recently began reclaiming myself too. Thank you for this blog, thank you for this post!

    2. Hi!

      I wanted to say thank you for this post. It meant a lot to me to hear another woman saying she is reclaiming herself. I have been happily together with my husband for the last fourteen years and while it has been good, it hasn't been perfect because throughout, I forgot who I was and have thought that the bulk of me should be intertwined with him--and then we discovered that he has a fairly serious mental illness and it felt as if my whole world had collapsed around me. What I did was to research his condition and learn how to deal with the bad times and in the process, I learned to reclaim myself.

      I have a particular band (OMD) whose music speaks directly to the depths of my soul and conscience and reminds me of who I am, in mind, in spirit, in soul and it helped me find myself when I didn't have a clue who I was. Now I know who I am, I know what to do to make ME happy and I am finally satisfied with the goals of my life and I am happy to share with you, because of your wonderful vlog (that I have subscribed to!) that a lot of the anger I have been carrying around with me for many years now, has dissipated. Thank you for what you have said here. :)

    3. Hi! I'm sorry, your comment ended up in the spam folder (I'm getting A LOT of spam lately) and I am just catching up on separating the spam from the real responses.

      I really appreciate your sharing your story here. It's all too common that we get sucked into the vortex of the person we're spending our lives with. It's a real challenge to maintain a sense of ourselves and it takes a strong effort to get it back once it is lost. The beauty in that though, is that we can always get it back. Music is such a reminder of what we've gone through, who we are and who we want to be.

      Good for you for reclaiming yourself! We can only be truly present with the ones we love when we are whole ourselves.

      Hugs! And I'm so glad you found me. I know your name, but I swear I have no memory of "crazy" having anything to do with you!


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